Crying because I miss my brother SO fucking much and because it’s hard and inconvenient to find a new job because the cunt manager at my old job fired me simply because she did not like me and because I just want to be like all of those other stupid white kids who get to go to school and not have to work and their parents pay for their fucking rent and food and school. And also crying because more than anything I just want to be married and have babies and do crafts with them and decorate my house with cute stuff I made from pinterest and just be happy being alive. I get so fucking jealous of people I went to highschool with who are getting married and having babies and I’m just like wtf universe ruler??? That bitch can’t even handle herself and you’re going to give her a child??? wtffff.
But I forgot that I’m not a privileged white kid so I’ll have to depend on myself for everything in life.
And I’m also 21 so I’m not allowed to want to be married and have kids right now because I’m supposed to care about partying and and going to raves and bars and making out with a new person every Friday.
And my brother is the greatest fucking person in the world so I won’t see him for probably for another year and because we have a shit for brains dick munching piece of crap president, we’ll probably be involved in another war before he’s out of office so chances are my brother will be deployed.
And job hunting gives me anxiety and also being unemployed gives me anxiety so that’s a big fucking black hole of fuckery right there..
And I’m so mean to my boyfriend sometimes and he’s so fucking understanding and just wants me to be happy and I feel like such a piece of shit when I let him down and have a bad day and just want to cry.
How the fuck to I become a normal functioning human being? Jesus someone throw me a fucking bone please.